I have been here in T or C for about a week now and...well...i dont think i can really escape Him....the greatness of the freedom i feel, as i am now at this moment, surrounded by his beautiful creation....the mountains, so big yet so close, and the sky so blue and so open, overwhelm me with my God...wow...i cant believe that i get to know Him...so faithful and so perfect...I come back to my little place in the openness of the mountains...tired and happy from the hours i get to spend with His little kids....and just as i realize that i am all alone...He makes himself aware...He is here...all around me...His presence is everywhere...like a consuming Peace that fills my soul with warmness and calls me to Himself...i try to find things to do in fear of wasting my time..yet He is just still .....always waiting for me to just be still with Him...to sit outside and take in, breath in His immense Self....to relax and just be...He is not rushing for anything...He holds time...aaaaa and i can sit still with Him...time is no more
im just amazed at...well...how real He is... something within me knows that there is so much more to this King of mine...
He has granted me the silliest desires of my heart...o How He loves us! There are horses right now living right up the little hill of the home im in...mountains and open blue skies and stars so bright and so many i feel i can touch them....the city i longed for could never have granted me this( i still love my city)....the calmness and the peace and the content in my soul is like i have not had in so long...the kids i so love....the smiles of the people....the guitar lessons...running outside surrounded by His creation...o the one thing i desire is to grab Him and just kiss him and hug him...He is soo good...Yes You are Lord....
Ever since i gave up running after my dreams and trying to understand my problems and insecurities and why life does not make sense...after i dared to Trust and to Love Him for Him...and only for Him..and to stop trying to make sense of everything i do not understand... well i have walked into this freedom and security that confuses the people around me...:))))).......
He has brought me to this little town just to show me how much He wants all of me for Himself and most importantly...He has shown me that even when i struggle with unbelief He still IS Faithful...despite what i think or feel He does not leave me alone.... He Loves me! I am overwhelmed that He loves me! lol He is so real and so BIG and so everywhere...
He cares so much that He brought me here...away to be with Him...just to to reveal Himself to me...to show me that He is always with me ....i cant run away from Him..... i have run from everything yet i cant from Him..all i have is Him surrounding me with the creation that sings glory to Him...O My God is so good....
Just the same i think He longs to take all of us away to experience Him...to run away with our Beloved... O I love you guys! I hope that you let this mysterious King of ours reveal Himself to you like He is to me:))))
Come visit me...there are amazing hot springs here:) and lots of horses and large beautiful spans of nothingness but beautifulness ..:)
