i think i have finally come to understand that to have the life i want...to taste unreal and to see the impossible...i have to first let go of all that makes sense...and let the hands of the One who created sense, write my impossible...i have been trying so hard to connect the dots and to complete the puzzle that my life is ...
how many of us live the same way...trying to define our experiences by what happens to others...and yet it never makes sense...no reasoning ever works...why is what i really want not happening? why do i pray and the answers not come..i dont feel good enough...failure stares me in the face...all i have is my great desire and even that the dry desert has made weak...and yet He is smiling...because before long all longings but the one to see His face will vanish and be forgotten like a dream... and He whispers...surrender all your understanding to Me..and I will give you treasures that have been hidden for ages..
surrender is something only foolish people do...they give up all control...yet in His Kingdom, only through raised hands and a surrendered heart does victory come..real freedom...the one the world is always fighting for...the life i desperately want to live...
its hard to give up what makes sense for an unknown adventure and yet its the most beautiful decision i am learning to live..
i have seen all other adventures...and i envy none...i want one of my own...one that is different...one that the angels will giggle and dance around about...one that can only take God to make happen...i dont know exactly what it looks like...i just know that i want something different..something worth writing about...something worth singing about...something worth believing...
a life unlike any other
and im sure that if God made so many people in their own unique ways...than He made an adventure, a life...one of a kind..especially for and only capable of being lived by me..
its daring...different...scary...maybe crazy...but i guess an extraordinary journey really begins with letting go of everything that is familiar..normal and safe...risking being foolish...maybe weird....yet who cares when you are the truly happy one.....take what makes sense...and forget about it...let Him write something different, something beautiful...to be lived...just by you
"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than yours." declares the Lord
He will make you ride on the heights of the earth....you just gotta let Him..simple hu...give up your reigns...let the adrenaline of life take over the pages of your story..He will write it...and edit it...to perfection..just gotta let Him
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